There were many times this past year where it felt as if I were drowning while everyone around me wa
There were many times this past year where it felt as if I were drowning while everyone around me was breathing just fine. I didn’t feel good enough for my art, my career, nor my friends and loved ones. I sunk into a deep, dark hole where I lacked motivation and passion to do anything. I was just so damn tired all the time. Not only were my heart and mind in pain, but my physical body was going through something of its own, too. Over the summer I was diagnosed with PCOS, which helped explain my heightened depression and anxiety, plus some uncontrollable weight gain (which I was constantly allowing to hurt my self-image). Learning what was causing me so much distress was a relief, but it also brought on some new insecurities. I feared the possibility of not being able to have children (which I so desperately want for myself) and I feared that I may never have control over my body or weight again. After 6 months of treatment, I am now cyst free and have lost the 25 lbs that I had gained over the year. But most importantly, my physical and mental health finally feel balanced and normal again. I still have my moments, but I feel lighter and more at peace with myself than I did before. 2017 was a year of self-discovery and self-healing. I learned to take initiative in order to make myself a healthier, happier person. On this final day of 2017, I can say that I actively DID that, and to me that is my biggest and most important victory of the year. I definitely couldn’t have gotten through it without the support of my friends and family. You know who you are and I love you. I feel inspired, energized, and ready to take on the new year. I hope you all are, too! If you aren’t, remember you’re not alone and you never will be. Take the time to find yourself, do things that make you happy, let go of things that don’t, and seek the help you may need in order to make yourself better. -- source link
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