karenlyra69: The moment of closing the door that leaves me alone with the chance to dress again has
karenlyra69: The moment of closing the door that leaves me alone with the chance to dress again has always made my heart pound fast. After I put on the bed the clothes I am about to dress including corsets, shape enhancers, breastforms, wigs, jewelry and staring at it all I start thinking about the “transformation” I am about to go through. As I start to get prepared and looking myself at the mirror from time to time at how my physical appearance is changing, my heart continues pounding strong and faster as if wanting to jump out of my chest. It is like something is becoming alive inside me and the thought that I am transforming myself changes. I am letting the woman in me to come out and express herself. I understand now, for me, there is really no transformation going on. It is just the way to prepare the physical body to meet the soul. And when that happens, as soon as I have finished and achieved the female look I want, my heart slows down and I feel released, happy and free. One day that will be out there in real life and not under locked doors on my own. Until then, it is wonderful to feel how my heart pounds knowing who I am.❤️ -- source link