bookwormguri: Pics not mine. Both were done by @yarking and they were posted here with his permissio
bookwormguri: Pics not mine. Both were done by @yarking and they were posted here with his permission. Pictured: His D&D character Fitz and NPC Lucian from when they first met and now as they just got married. The first pic can also be found here for a bit more context. But yeah, I was asked to do a write up about my “feelings” on Lucian and how he has changed over the course of our campaign as a DM. It’s something I’ve been thinking about for a while so, why not? This is gonna be looooong because I can’t be concise when it comes to this game. So my long-winded rambling will be under the cut. General trigger warning for some souls because our campaign in pretty dark so there may be mention of abuse, including childhood physical and sexual abuse and gore. Keep reading When I was an art major, I had a lot of resistance towards proccesses and genres of art that put emphasis on “happy accidents” and leaning into the improv aspect of art. It frustrated me to no end that there were elements that were out of my control, and that I was being taught not only that I couldn’t control it, but that beauty and meaning could come OUT of that lack of control. It took years for me to understand what that meant, and that meaning, of letting things blossom organically and embrace the amazing things that could come out of it, really only came to fruition when I started doing collaborations, first with @autumninthenorth and then with @featherbow. Woking with a seperate mind allowed me to be reactive and sink into a character, instead of micromanage a story where life from a character is sacrificed for plot. That was a massive release to creating work that really allowed me to tap in to something special. It freed that ability to work with what ust… stumbles out, and has dramatically improved my skill as a writer for it.I think Lucian is a beautiful lesson in the heart of what that means. There’s something special about a character, this little borrowed life you make, becoming something more, and then something important, and then something genuinely cherished, because as much as I love the plot and the story and epic adventures of game, it’s the interpersonal journeys of these characters that have the biggest draw to me as a player, and keep me engaged and excited to come back week by week. Lucian is one of those characters. He’s a friend to me, as much as Vekti and Var. And it blows my mind as a player that the culture surrounding DnD could possibly imply that that’s a bad thing. But then, I have to remember how lucky I am to be in a group that cares about playing, not winning. Fuck the haters, a DM PC is part of my favorite thing about playing this game. Not “one of my favorite things”, but part of my favorite thing, because the reason I play this game is to live this seperate life and inhabit this person who is seperate but a part of me. Fitz is in love with Lucian. Lucian is the most important person in Fitz’s life. This game wouldn’t be this game, and Fitz’s life wouldn’t be his life, without this person he’s grown to love in it, who has helped him grow and made him the person he is, and the person I get to be. That’s what DnD is about. -- source link