hur0ns:[Tweet from @samsykesswears reading: “A cool thing about writing is that the better you
hur0ns:[Tweet from @samsykesswears reading: “A cool thing about writing is that the better you get at it, the more you’re aware of what you want out of it, which means it gets harder, which means you actually feel like you’re getting worse. And by ‘cool thing’ I mean ‘what the fuck, man.’”] I was actually thinking about this the other day. When I first started writing, before I had any expectations of myself, I was so prolific. I sat down at my computer every night and wrote for hours. I didn’t plot things out or worry about pacing, I didn’t analyze my character development or obsess over my tone. I just sat down and let the story unfold. And Lord let me tell you, it sure shows! Those fics fell into every bad fanfic trope there was, from epithets and cerulean orbs, to plot holes the size of your head. But I still enjoyed writing then so much more than I enjoy writing now.I think there must be a point where it smooths out again, when all those things that I fixate on right now eventually become second nature, and it will get easier again. But the journey from here to there is treacherous, and I’ve thought about quitting so many times. Now is when I’m the most vulnerable—when the voices in my head telling me that I’m just not that good are the loudest, the most convincing. Quitting is a siren song and if I can ignore it for just a little while longer, it’ll be smooth sailing. So I’ll tie myself to the mast and shout my stories at any passersby. So if you stumble into the path of one of these drabbles, and it tickles your fancy, don’t hesitate to drop me a line. It may just be what I need to keep me from jumping overboard. -- source link