If I take away the idea that I’m not working and my workouts are modified, I might not be
If I take away the idea that I’m not working and my workouts are modified, I might not be doing too bad considering the state that we’re in. I’ve always cooked meals for my family but they weren’t home THIS much. The pandemic is forcing me to make food just a bit more and I’m okay with that. Cooking takes my mind away from the b/s. Despite the actual physical harm that COVID-19 does to the human body, the quarantine process exposes layers that I am forced to face about myself. A Buzzfeed article about eating disorders and how practicing the safety protocols necessary from COVID-19 (i.e. staying indoors) are triggering for some people made a few things click. I listened to my internal dialogue yesterday and realize part of nervous energy stemmed from the reduction of my workouts. Thankfully I’m at a good place where I no longer believe in shit like earning my meal but light codependency in working out hard can dictate my happiness at times. That reflection told me that I still have work to do AND I was in need of a meal that would make me forget about a damn pandemic. During these stressful times, I love creating hearty dishes and this was the one that came to mind. Might post up this recipe today. I’m using this time to patch up some cracks within myself. And if I can make a bomb ass meal while on the mend, I’m winning. Yesterday’s Dinner: Beef Enchiladas | Chicken Enchiladas | Spanish Rice | Black Beans #runningfatchef #fatrunner #cheftalk #ed #covid_19 #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #food #foodslut #chicken #beef #enchiladas #culinary (at Bedford–Stuyvesant, Brooklyn) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-MuVDjH1JS/?igshid=170044rlak0l7 -- source link
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