pleasebets: sissy-val: and submise… I like to think I was born a bottom…. but I do som
pleasebets: sissy-val: and submise… I like to think I was born a bottom…. but I do sometimes wonder if my childhood forced me or if I was born this way. I mean, while I love the cock craving faggot I am today, I’ll never really know if I was born this way due to the fact that my enjoyment and desire for cock was something I trained myself to feel as a coping strategy from being molested as a child. They told me if I relaxed and and didn’t fight it, then it would feel better… so I basically “allowed” myself to relax and learn how to find enjoyment from being molested. Basically it was mind over matter until I was able to find some pleasure from something I didn’t understand but knew I couldn’t or at least didn’t know how control or make stop. I do like to think I was already going to be a faggot because while I didn’t want what was my method of introduction to cock, I was already secretly obsessed with it and wanted to touch and see other boys cocks my own age, especially if they were bigger than me, and I felt that even before I knew what sex was or what to do with a cock or even what an orgasm was at that young of an age. And I know it was before I was molested starting at 6 years old. Also, while there is a special place in hell for molesters and no “excuse” could ever be a valid reasoning for it, I do kind of wonder if I somehow did or said something that made those men molest me or think I wanted their cocks…. I know I looked at crotches because they somehow drew my eye, but yeah. I know it’s not my fault, but I wonder if something I did caused it. Anyway….. I’m a happy, well adjusted, successful, cock craving and loving faggot now and I wouldn’t change a thing except that I wish I had a couple clean gorgeous cocks down my throat and raw fucking my ass more often than currently happens :PLove and kisses :) -- source link