Forgotten Memories1. Not Just Another DayThe number one most irritating noise in the entire existenc
Forgotten Memories1. Not Just Another DayThe number one most irritating noise in the entire existence of the universe, is the noise of an alarm clock buzzing. Because that’s all it does, is buzz and buzz and buzz until you finally roll over and whack it hard enough to get it to shut up. I mean crying babies at 4 am is a close second to the most annoying thing, believe me, I know exactly what that’s like, but alarm clocks are the most i’d-rather-be-deaf annoying sounds in the world.Yes it’s Friday and I should be waking up like Cinderella, but no, I’m definitely Ana in the comparison of how realistic people sleep compared to Disney princesses. Even if I am a drooling, hair everywhere, mess like Ana, there’s no way in hell I’m singing after I get ready. Who even does that?! Life isn’t High School Musical; You can’t just sing whenever you want.If I did sing in every situation I could, everyone in the world would be deaf. Then they wouldn’t have to deal with alarm clocks. Maybe I’d go deaf if I sang more, too.“Andy, get up!”Queue the third most irritating noise in the entire existence of the universe.I let out a huge groan, and fall out of bed. I literally fall, like I thought there was more bed, but nope. So here I sit, lying on the false carpet of my cold bedroom, questioning life. I mean it’s 6:53 A.M, on a Friday morning, do I really have to wake up and go to school?“Andy, now, you can’t be late again.”Yes, you really have to wake up.Groaning again I thrust myself up off my floor and trudge out of my bedroom, to the bathroom. Thank god that I’m the only one who sleeps in the basement, because there’s no way I could share a bathroom with any of my siblings.Mom’s in the laundry room, trying to find something to wear, like always. I don’t understand why she cares so much, she just sits behind a desk all day, aside from when she’s selling people houses. All I ever wear are sweats and t-shirts. On my good days maybe some jeans. Sadly, today is not one of my good days.After I finish in the bathroom, I zombie walk back to my bedroom, hearing my mother sigh before I hear her footsteps go up the stairs. I shut my door and get dressed, throwing on a fresh pair on sweats, and a hoodie over the t-shirt I’m wearing now. I throw my hair up, not caring what it looks like. After I throw on some socks and shoes I grab my phone, keys, and backpack.“Andy!” My mother screams for the third time this morning.“I’m coming!” I shout back as I stomp up the stairs.“Watch your tone with me young lady,” Mom scolds me, which I return with an eye roll.“Bye mom! Have a wonderful day!” I shout sarcastically as I slam the back door, and open the drivers side door of my crappy Honda.“God it’s about time,” Brandon sighs, turning on the radio as soon as I turn on the car.“Oh shut up you little insect,” I whisper and smack his hand away from the radio.I glance in the rear view mirror to make sure that Ruth is safe in her car seat. After I finally pick a good radio station, I pull out of our garage and head to Ruth’s nanny. Since she’s only about six months old, and both of the parents in our household work full time, she goes to the nanny every day while everyone’s at school, work, practice, etc.Once I’m outside of Jenny’s house, and the car is off I carefully take Ruth out of the car, in order not to wake her. Even though she is a deep sleeper, waking her up while she’s sleeping peacefully is not a good idea.“Good morning Andy!” Jenny chirps in her irritating barbie doll voice.“Hi.” I glance up at her, then return my gaze to Ruth.“Bye, Ruthie, see you tonight. Have fun with Barbie,” I whisper as I kiss her forehead.Reluctantly I hand her over to Jenny.“See you Monday morning! Have a great day Andy!” She widely grins at me.I nod at her and walk away. I am always amazed that no matter how loud or how much Jenny talks, Ruth never wakes up. But when I even talk in my normal voice, she wakes up screaming.As I drive away from Jenny’s house, I crank the radio, and drum my fingers on the steering wheel. Brandon groans, and I grin evilly, then I start to sing (more like screech) along with the song. His hands immediately go to his ears, as he shouts at me to shut up.Two seconds later we pull up to our school, right next to the gym entrance where I always drop him off. I slam on the brakes and turn town the radio.“Get out.”“Gladly, god you’re such a freak!” He exclaims then slams the door and runs into the building.I roll my eyes, and drive away, completely use to the names that he, and everyone else call me.Once I’m at Starbucks my mood brightens slightly. Coffee makes everything better.“The usual,” I say to the worker, and he punches it into the computer, knowing my order by heart, since I do come here every day; a caramel macchiato and a plain buttered croissant.By the time I’ve driven back to the school, found a parking spot, and eaten my croissant the tardy bell has rang ten minutes ago. I lazily stroll through the school continuing to sip on my warm coffee. Eventually I end up in the office, signing a late slip. I sloppily write that “Starbucks or school, you choose.” As the excuse, and once it’s signed by an ornery woman who’s name I still haven’t cared enough to learn, I head to math.“Ms. Ross, how nice of you to join us,” my balding math teach exclaims once I hand him my slip.“It’s great to be here, Bill,” I wave my had behind me as I walk to my seat, earning a few snickers from the class.“As I was saying…” Blah blah blah, it’s too early to think about math right now.I doodle all over my binder as Mr. Reed teaches something I will most likely never use in life.No wonder I’m failing this class.I sigh, and attempt to pay attention to what he’s saying but it’s so incredibly boring.When the bell finally rings, I lazily exit the room, ignoring the looks that Mr. Reed. The next hour I have is Financial Literacy, and I don’t pay attention in that, Physics, or English. Lunch rolls around, and I go through my usual routine; buy nasty food that is only half edible, find an empty seat, eat the stuff that doesn’t taste like cardboard, dump the rest, sit by locker until the bell rings, listening to my musical choice of the day during the whole lunch hour of course. I would go out to have lunch, but I spend my allotment of cash on gas and Starbucks everyday, so sadly I can’t afford the luxury of McDonald’s for lunch.Gym is torture like always, especially after lunch, like who would put a child through torture like that? Today we played dodge ball, so double torture.Finally, the last hour of the school day arrives, and it’s the only class that I actually enjoy; Art.“What are you working on today, Andy?” Ms. Abbott surprises me, making me jump slightly.“Just a black and white self portrait,” I answer, slightly embarrassed.“It shows a lot of emotion, you’re a true artist, keep it up and you’ll be famous,” She grins at me, then walks away.I stare at the dark drawing I front of me. It shows me lying flat on my back in the middle of the road, dark clouds above me, and rain falling, the tiny droplets resting on my face. I used to paint, and draw, with loads of different colors, they were all so bright and happy.That’s not how it is anymore. For three years now, anything I’ve done has always been in black and white.Ever since that horrible night that changed my life forever.“Andy, go call your father, will you? He should be home by now, dinner’s getting cold,” Mom ask’s, rubbing her temples. She’d been getting migraines lately, and all she wanted to do is have a nice family dinner. We haven’t had one in months, because dad started working later, and mom has been to tired from her work.I look over at Adam, but he’s too busy texting Katie, his first actually serious girlfriend. They’ve been together for a month now, and he’s happier than ever, but he’s constantly with her. Not that it matters, he thinks I’m an annoying pest, so he never is around me anyway.In the family room, we have a phone, and that’s the only one I’m allowed to use. Mom doesn’t allow me on hers, and I’ve never touched Adam’s, not that I want to, who knows what a 17 year old teenage boy has on their phone. I dial dad’s number, and wait for it to ring.“What?” he asks gruffly.“Mom wants to know when you’ll be home.”“I’m almost there, probably ten minutes, you can all eat without me,” He slurs, and I know he’s been drinking, again.“Alright,” I sigh, “Drive safe, love you.”“Love you too,” He grumbles, then hangs up.I walk back into the kitchen, “He says to eat with him, that he’d be ten minutes.”Mom sighs, “Go ahead, I’m not hungry anymore,” She then leaves, making me frown.I serve myself some cold Ziti, and chew on the cold pasta. I glance up at Adam, to see him shoving food in his mouth, whilst texting.“Who knew you multitask,” I mutter.“Shut up, Tiny,” He sends me a quick glare, then focuses back on his phone.I sigh again, and push away my food. I stand up and leave the table, heading straight to my room. The walls are light pink, with flowers all over them. I’ve kept bugging mom and dad about changing it, to more mature colors, instead of keeping the colors I picked out when I was six. They always brush it off, saying we’ll redo it soon.I grab my sketch pad from my table, and collapse on my bed. Paging through everything I’ve ever drawn, I stop on my latest one. The back of a girl, who has long, gorgeous blonde hair. She’s holding a white rose, and has loads of different kinds of flowers in her hair. She’s standing in a field of gorgeous flowers, and the sun is shining down on her.I’m reminded of Rapunzel, but a more modern version. I’ve colored it with my new pastel colored pencils I saved up for, and love. Once I’ve finished the sky, I start on the field, and here the phone ring.“Hello?” Mom’s the one that answers the phone.“This is she.”“What?” her voice is light, and shocked, and my stomach instantly drops.“I’ll be there right away,” I can tell that she’s about to start crying.I walk out of my room, and see her hang up the phone with her hand on her mouth.“Mom what happened?” Adam asks, standing up.“Your father, he was driving, and he didn’t see the girl crossing the street. They said that he was drunk.”My eyes widen and a gasp leaves my lips.“I need to go to him,” Mom’s already got her keys in her hand, and is slipping on her shoes.“We’re coming with you,” I say, but mom shakes her head urgently.“No, there’s not enough time, you two stay here,” She decides, and is out the door.I look at Adam pleadingly.“Did he sound drunk when you talked to him?” his voice is completely serious.“Adam, you kn-”“Did he sound drunk?!” He shouts, causing me to flinch.I just nod, and look away from him.“And you didn’t bother to tell us that?!”“I didn’t want to stress out mom more, and you never listen to me!” Tears form in my eyes.“If it was about him I would have listened,” He’s not shouting anymore, but what he says hurts me, causing a tear to stream down my face.Adam walks away, leaving me alone with my torturous thoughts.We’re at our house, without a single word from anyone for two hours. Two hours of self loathing, and blaming myself. Finally the phone rings, and Adam’s the first one to it.“Hello?”I move closer to Adam, to try and hear what’s going on. He pushes me away, sending me a glare.“Seriously? Okay, hurry and be safe,” He hangs up and starts to walk away.I grab his arm, turning him around with all my strength, “What did she say?”He pushes me away, making me repel back and hit the wall, causing a sharp pain to shudder down my back, “She’s coming home, alone.”I look up at Adam shocked, that he actually hurt me like this. He walks away without another word. I slide down the wall in shock, of everything that’s going on. The second the door opens, I’m to my feet, asking mom what happened.We all end up at the kitchen table, that still has our cold dinner on it.“You’re father was arrested for vehicular homicide. He hit a little girl who was crossing the street, and she died instantly.”I’m shocked, while Adam opens his mouth immediately.“Was he drunk?”I squeeze my eyes shut, knowing the answer already.“Yes, he was driving while intoxicated.”“Jesus Andy, this is all your fault!” He shouts, standing up.“What?” mom asks, completely lost.“Andy knew that dad was drunk when she talked to him on the phone, and just like the child she is, she didn’t bother to tell either of us!”I look up at mom, with guilty eyes.“Is this true?” She whispers.“It’s not the first time, so I just assumed everything would be fine,” Oh how I wish I could disappear right now.“Telling us could have prevented this Andrea, you could have prevented this.”The look she gave me then, is one I can see every day, and try to forget.All I want to do is forget, but I never can.My father was sentenced to fifteen years in prison. I haven’t gone to visit him because mom refuses to let me. I used to write him letters, but eventually mom stopped letting me. She despises him, and doesn’t want anything to do with him. Adam’s 21 now, so he can see him if he wants. He’s done it behind moms back once, and made me promise not to tell her about it. I wanted to go with him so badly, but he wouldn’t let me.Mom got married two years later, moved on real quickly. She never really loved dad, she just stuck with him because of me and Adam. She married a big shot pediatric surgeon, and is the happiest I’ve ever seen. Phillip has two kids of his own. I got a new step sister, Tiffany, the head cheerleader that’s a senior at my school, who loathes me, and lives to make my life hell. My step brother Brandon, is the most irritating fifteen year old I’ve ever met. Him and his friends love to torment me, and prank me.About a year after mom and Phillip got married, she announced that she was pregnant. Ruth looks like both mom and Phil, she’s got curly dark brown hair, and bright blue eyes. She’s the only one in our house that doesn’t hate me.“Andy?” Mrs. Abbott snaps her fingers in front of my face.“Oh, sorry,” I blink and look up at her.“The bell rang, schools out, go home so I can too and watch Gossip Girl,” She shoo’s me away, causing me to grin.“See you tomorrow Jules,” I say over my shoulder as I leave the room, holding my sketchpad to my stomach.“See you,” She answers.It’s pretty sad when you’re art teacher is the person you talk to the most at school.Sighing, I make my way out to my car, and drive straight home, excited for a few hours to be alone. Mom and Phillip are still work, Tiffany always has cheer practice, and Brandon’s either at football or with his friends. I’m the one that doesn’t have a life and stays home everyday.Not that I’m complaining, it’s great to be alone. I can blast my music, eat all I want, and not care about anything, sometimes I don’t even wear pants, just because I don’t have to. It’s that great. Then they all come home eventually, and it goes back to normal.My music suddenly turns off, and my phone starts to buzz. I look at it to see that Adam’s calling me.“Adam!!!!” I scream.“Jesus Andy, I’m gonna go deaf!”“Well hello to you too,” I grumble, with a mouth full of leftover pizza we had for dinner last night.“How are things?” He asks, knowing my situation at home.I sigh, “Still the same; they all still hate me.”“They don’t hate you Andy,” Adam groans.“Yes they do,” I reply in sing song.He sighs, “Ruth doesn’t, she adores you. How is the little booger?”“She’s good, still going to Barbie’s house everyday,” I walk around the house, not knowing what else to do.“Mom’s still working full time?” He sounds shocked.“Yup,” I pop the ‘p’.“God almighty, Phillip makes more than enough to support everyone, there’s no reason for her to be at work,” I can tell that he’s putting his face in his hands.“She goes just so she doesn’t have to be around me,” I mumble.“Andy,”“Adam,” I copy his tone.“She doesn’t hate you.”“Whatever you say! How’s college?” I change the topic, because I don’t want to talk about our mother, and I want to know how he’s doing.“It’s great, the classes are a difficult, of course, but the parties, the girls, it’s great, you’d love it Andy.”I scoff, “If it’s anything like high school I doubt that.”“Do they still bring it up?” he immediately asks.“Every. Damn. Day.”Adam sighs, “I’m so sorry Andy, they don’t even know the whole story, so just ignore them, you know it’s not your fault, right?”I stay silent.“Andy?”“I could have prevented it Adam, you said so yourself,” My voice is weak, and on the verge of tears.“Andy, it was almost four years ago, we’ve gone over this hundreds of times, it was not your fault at all. I was an ass back then, you of all people know that, but what I said was so wrong. Even if you did tell one of us, what would we have done, called him and had him get into an accident, and possibly die?”“We could have went to pick him up, or had him catch a cab, or-” he interrupts me.“Stop, just stop. You think about it a lot don’t you?”“Constantly.”Adam sighs, “Have you been taking the pills?”“I ran out of them months ago, and mom hasn’t bothered to notice that they’re empty.”Adam’s quiet for a few moments, “Sometimes I think you’re better off living with me.”“Me too,” I whisper.“I have to go, my roommates home, and needs help with something. I’ll talk to you soon, just talk to mom, okay? You need those pills Andy,” Adam speaks quickly, and seriously.I hear noise in the background, “I will,” Complete lie.“Okay, love you Tiny.”I smile at the old nickname, that I used to despise, “Love you too, Apple.”Adam laughs lightly at his own nickname, then hangs up. I sigh, and toss my phone on the counter. I walk into the bathroom, and wince at the site of me. My eyes are bloodshot, with huge bags underneath them, my hair is all over the place, and my wardrobe is messy. Overall I look like a zombie. Turning on the water, I splash some on my face, trying to rid the bags under my eyes. I give up after a few seconds.I stalk downstairs to my bedroom, grabbing my glasses, so I can actually see the homework that I’m not going to do. I notice clothes all over my floor, and groan, knowing that mom will yell after me if she see’s it. Right as I start to clean up my room, the door bell rings.My head snaps to my window, and I don’t see any car in my driveway. The doorbell rings again, and I start to walk slowly towards the door, slightly worried by it, because I never get anyone knocking on the door when I’m home alone.The person knocks on the door, repeatedly.“Calm your tit’s I’m coming!” I exclaim, as I make my way up the stairs. I open the door with a glare on my face.“What do yo-” my voice stops working when I see a head full of bright red hair.“Are you Andrea Ross?” his Australian accent sounds exhausted, and out of breath.My eyes widen, not believing my eyes. Michael Clifford stands at my door step, looking like he just got hit by a bus. What do I do?I slam the door in his face.authors note:I’m bringing this fanfic back, because of my newly found ideas and passion for amnesia stricken Michael, and sassy, yet deeply troubled Andy.I actually might have an update schedule! I’ll try to update a new chapter every Sunday, but that might not work out, I don’t know.A quick announcement, this fic is going to be a short story, like my Calum fic #7 but I don’t know yet how long it will beSo vote and comment!Until next time xxHannah -- source link
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