femaleintimacy:This is a very personal picture but this is also a very personal story. In the first
femaleintimacy:This is a very personal picture but this is also a very personal story. In the first grade I never understood why I would get very hurt when the girl I wanted so badly to be my friend would play with other girls. In middle school I had my first crush but I told my self I just wanted to be “ cool “ like that girl. In high school I would lay in bed sobbing keeping my secret deep down. Never even telling my best friend who I told everything too. After high school I spent years jumping from guy to guy trying to find the one who “ gave me butterflies “ and the one I could see growing old with. I never found that guy. Then one day in a crowded dive bar a friend of mine looked at me and said “ Lainey, you are gay. “ I laughed and replied “ I don’t think so but girls are hot. “ I went home that night and repeated “Lainey, you are gay” in my head over and over. I knew it was true. I always knew it was true. I finally convinced myself of what deep down I’ve always known. At first it was terrifying. I didn’t know where to start. Slowly I began talking to girls and eventually even dated one long term who is now one of my good friends (lol lesbians). It got easier. My first date with was at a drive in theatre. Nether one of us could tell you what movie was playing. We talked the whole time. That night and everyone since I got the butterflies. I can see us sitting on the porch with grandkids in the yard. I can see her face aged from time but still as beautiful as ever. In 138 days she will be my wife. If you would have told me at 15 life gets better I wouldn’t have believed you. I don’t know if anyone will even read this but I hope this is the story someone needs to have the courage to live their truth. Yes it was very very hard in the beginning. I lost friends and family over it who don’t agree with it. But I would do it again and again if it meant my story ended up here. There’s not a price I wouldn’t pay to be this happy. -- source link