Not necessarily but yes this time yes. I don’t want today to be the same. Oh christ I cannot h
Not necessarily but yes this time yes. I don’t want today to be the same. Oh christ I cannot handle being this, feeling this, how do I make it different. What do I change? Fat disgusting worthless whoreYes I knowDieYes I know. But no. Idk. Stuck trapped can’t move, my life my choice what to do? Don’t want to feel so scared huge and scared scared scared, don’t want to be useless disgusting and bad. Don’t want to be bad for people. Want to be allowed be here. Don’t know what to do. DieI know. No. Now what? Clean my room kill yourself talk to people appreciate life BP/cut and smileDie. No. How move without destruction???????????? I just want to shut all this up and stay away from everything. So. Fat. And worthless. Be better. Move different change CHOICE. and stop fucking crying or your parents will hear you. Same shut gets you same shut, this feeling will always be waiting for you on the other side of the OTHER painful feelings from detaching / running away/ shutting yourself up with destruction. It hurts and then this is there waiting for you on the other side. I honestly want to do something different, I want to do something different something to help, something I can believe in but I can’t see clearly, the only sense I see is die the only sense I feel is die or listen to urges to stfu and get through today. I don’t want to be a 26 year old fat useless where that just keeps hurting everyone I have no clue what to do. His new game smile real cry I want to change someone jdjdudbdnsjsjdbdjsjdb -- source link
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