autogynephelia: It’s about the anxiety of comparing yourself with cis females.. ..and I often had th
autogynephelia: It’s about the anxiety of comparing yourself with cis females.. ..and I often had these anxieties when sat alone, bored, scrolling through Instagram posts, it’s kinda like gender dysphoria on poppers. The perfect lifestyle imagery incited doubt and anxieties within me about how I compared as a woman on every level. I knew I just couldn’t compete on any level; these ‘influencers’ started with it all - their only way is up. This is when I had my worst fear - succeeding as a woman on any level; and let’s face it, I’m at the bottom in many respects. I don’t say that in a piteous victim way, just as a mater of socio-economic fact. Society treats females who sell access as being at the bottom of the heap, it’s my choice of course. If you’re a non-natal female, multiple that stigma x 100; but, I am extremely grateful for everything I have, including life as a woman. Hang on a moment - don’t these cis influencers also sell access, like a peek show girls? Whores of Instagram? So, I forgot what these others were doing; and focused on myself. I’ll just do being myself onwards. -- source link