shipperwrit342:*Shyly analyzes character’s initial state of being*Ebony’s a girl with a view of soci
shipperwrit342:*Shyly analyzes character’s initial state of being*Ebony’s a girl with a view of society that is very pessimistic. She sees everyone as preps and as unworthy of her presence, and because she feels like these unintelligent people run the world, she clings to goth (or what she perceives to be goth) so as not to get drawn into their mediocrity. She sees that people dont like to think about stuff like death, suffering, and being alone and what that means, and so to make up for that, she plunges into this stereotypical character mold that places all these things on itself but doesn’t embody them or actually represent them, because she doesn’t know how to actually represent death without fearing it like everyone else.Going back to the ‘she perceives’ bit, Ebony also sees that people who are goth also have their own problems, and the goths that she’s encountered are unpleasant and evil (Bellatrix and her gang are bad, obviously). So she’s got this image of goth that other goths perceive as being shallow and obnoxious, because she likes it, but she doesn’t like everything about it. Just like any other person with an interest, there are some things that one doesn’t like. And she’s afraid of this, so she calls Bellatrix and the other goths preps and fakers.And she likes Hermione and Ron and Harry and Draco, but she sees that they are different from her. She sees that they are ‘preps’ and ‘goth’ and all they wanna be, and they mix these things (which shocks her and confuses her), and they find their own balances between boundless optimism and heavy realism,And she can’t accept that, because it means that this cookie-cutter world she’s made for herself isn’t very legit. It means that she may actually be ok with preps. And this terrifies her. because she’s not really this badass goth chick vampire witch with no friends and no fucks, but she’s a person.And her friends are people tooAnd this is an earthquake to her coreSo she plasters her own images onto them and forces them to at least not question them. To her this is the same as accepting these stereotypes and being content to just be a stereotype, a safe stereotype , where nothing changes and nothing can really go wrong,like a cartoon character that doesn’t age. She doesn’t want to lose her world, but her friends are precious. And she can’t admit this either. So she gives them names, she christens them in her own image, and this allows her world to remain stable, even though it means her friends aren’t as close, because she’s not seeing (and refusing to see) their true selves.And this means she’s in her own world. And she knows that Vampire is really Harry, and that means that when she admits it, her world turns monochrome, because it means that she knows her ideas are just really safety constructs of her psyche.And she knows, deep down, that it’s lonelyAnd then the (My) Immortal Crew basically gave Character to this hopeless individual and became literary heroes -- source link
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