tarotprose: Dear Journal,Tomorrow is the arraignment for the case of my Uncle Rob molesting and rapi
tarotprose: Dear Journal,Tomorrow is the arraignment for the case of my Uncle Rob molesting and raping me when I was a child. I feel numb, I am scared, I have been crying all day. I talked to the prosecutor Friday and they told me that they are hoping that my uncle will take a plea deal but he has yet to do so. The arraignment tomorrow is the start or the end of this nightmare. He can either plead guilty and I can be done with this nightmare and start my healing process or he pleads not guilty and this saga of hurt and reopening these old wounds and retelling all the times he hurt me all over again begins. I haven’t been sleeping. I barely have been eating. I just feel disgusting and like he has this hold on me again. I don’t have to be at the arraignment tomorrow but I am just hoping and praying that my uncle does the right thing for once. I talked to Mom and Dad and they both tell me that I am brave but I don’t feel that way at all. University is starting tomorrow in the afternoon and I just don’t know if I am going to even be able to make it through my first day. Whoever is reading this, if you can please send me some good vibes, whatever you are comfortable doing, I will accept them. I really need some positivity because right now, I feel like I’m sinking back into what my depression was like before it went untreated. I can’t go back to the bad place again. =/ I pulled a few Tarot cards and from the looks of it, it seems hopeful but at the same time, I just don’t know anymore. I just really want this to be over. Post Notes: Please do not remove the captions.Date: September 5th 2016Time: 09:59 PMLocation: HomeAuthor: Ivan Ambrose Quote of the day: “Don’t judge yourself by what others did to you.” ― C. KennedyMood: Depressed and Scared Safe Space Tags: Rape, Molestation, Court, Child Abuse, Abuse, Mental HealthNavigation: Table Of Contents | FAQ | Contact me -- source link