Since being told a year and a half ago that there was absolutely no way that I could start HRT unles

Since being told a year and a half ago that there was absolutely no way that I could start HRT unless I got my type 1 diabetes under control, I have gained 50 pounds. Many people probably don’t realize this, because statistically most people don’t know the difference between type 1 and type 2 diabetes, but an unhealthy type 1 diabetic looks like that photo on the left; pale, frail and sickly. My A1C% was at 13.7 after probably 3+ years of not taking care of myself properly. I was in a really unhealthy relationship, where I didn’t feel cared for, so I stopped caring for myself. It became a habit. A habit that was really hard to break for me. Because my sugars were high, all the time, my body didn’t actually absorb any of the nutrients, fats or proteins that I was feeding it. It was basically like I wasn’t eating at all, no matter how much I stuffed my face. In the picture on the left, I weighed the lowest I had since probably 6th grade, 132 lbs. Once I started getting healthy, taking more insulin, absorbing everything I put into my body, in an effort to start hormones and finally become my authentic self, I started packing on the pounds. Since starting testosterone I’ve gained some more, but finally hit a plateau at 185 lbs. It’s hard for me to look in the mirror, because honestly, even though I was on the verge of being in the hospital at 132 lbs, I felt the most confident in my appearance than I ever had in my life. I felt like I could pass more because I wasn’t so “curvy”. I had less dysphoria. Gaining over 50 lbs has brought back a lot of that unwanted torture of body/gender dysphoria, until I look at these 2 photos side by side. That photo on the left, scares the hell out of me. I was so sick. I was so used to feeling sick, that I just didn’t feel it anymore. I may not be where I want to be physically, on the outside, but I am healthy on the inside, and I couldn’t be more grateful for that. #transgender #transisbeautiful #typeonediabetes #t1d #ftm #transguy #trans #comparison #myjourney -- source link

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