So here I come after so long, I wasn’t been healed at all. I remembered all that I tired so ha
So here I come after so long, I wasn’t been healed at all. I remembered all that I tired so hard to forget, the feeling of your heart is blending came back. I sometimes really feels like you like me even how little it is but sometimes I feels like that was just my imagination. Please tell me if you love me because I love you so hard. Couldn’t remember how many times I heard from people and even myself that you’re just a dick that had fun in playing people’s feelings. I actually agree with that but most of the time I mentally forced myself to deny that cuz sometimes you’re like so good, you was never a ass hoe, there’s misunderstanding, maybe you just dk how to express, maybe you’re scare, maybe you really love me. Yeah, I apparently found so many excuses for you. All those bullshit you said to me such as you’ll never leave, you’ll never let me down, you’ll come if there’s empty sit, all those sweet words, bullshits of the century. The only promise that has worked out is “I’ll let this girl cry”, can you remember you said that to me? Damn I really cried as hard as I loved you. I know I deserve this pain cuz I never let go, I just cannot, seriously bro, how long does it want to be like this, I wanted to talk but I’m scare, I know your answers will definitely break my heart, even it is broken enough. Next week your birthday, I’m confused, what should I do. I’m sick having friendship with you while our hearts doesn’t wanted to, maybe only me, I never know what are you thinking about, you always stopped things on a certain point, never make it clear, and I never be brave to continue it, cuz you hurt me too much since the first time you decided to act like a stranger to me. I thought you like me but you’re not, I can felt the difference when you talks to me and others, the way you looks at me, the way you smile at me, or it was all fake. I can’t control myself on being so sensitive, so imaginatively and so childish. Please, I know my heart won’t stop loving you for that fast but, don’t give up on me, don’t leave me like that. -- source link