serfonhisknees: mistressconnie: I love the occasional show in public So i am a submissive male, a bo
serfonhisknees: mistressconnie: I love the occasional show in public So i am a submissive male, a born beta… a happy slave or servant to anything Female… you would think such a scene immediately excites me totally but it doesn’t. my first reaction is anxiety, not a happy sexual excitement. i am still a man, i am still a proud man that enjoys a sense of masculinity or at least the facade of machismo. So when i have been told to submit in public my skin gets cold and my heart races as i feel a attack on my ego is imminent and coming on with a force i can’t take on. i don’t want to submit in public as it happens but i do for fear of displeasing the Domina who calls for it so i do it. When bystanders have noticed they either laugh or they pretend they aren’t seeing it but they are. Each set of eyes impacts my anxiety and it pushes my ego into the depth of the humiliation hole that much further. Do i wish i had never experienced public exposure? No… I wish it was not happening as it happens BUT when i am back in the car or house with the Domina who made me do it i feel flushed with Adrenalin and i actually feel gratitude for that push. -- source link