jkontumblr:Holly Lehane It’s Friday/Saturday late night.Jesus, depression is hammering me. Som
jkontumblr:Holly Lehane It’s Friday/Saturday late night.Jesus, depression is hammering me. Some things, beyond my control, are really troubling me. I have a feeling nobody is having a jolly 2022 (perhaps Chinese Communist Party and Winnie the Pooh), but I’m always amazed at how this terrible disease can get you down. I have a good hunch, it’s genetics. My grand-grandfather hair turned grey the night he was trying to stop his brother from suicide (his wife left him for a richer guy, back in 1919) and there are plenty of depression on that side of the family. Interesting, it’s all men. Women aren’t depressed in any part of my family. Just men. And in general terms, women have a higher degree of depression. My grandmother, the daughter of the grey dude, she survived some terrible things in life, including worst type sarcoma, she wasn’t ever depressed, As one of my cousins like to say, she made other depressed. I thing sarcoma really changed her personality for worse. In my case my depression hits me the hard when I can’t control bad things. I’m trying my best and yet I cannot do anything on one level. That’s killing me. I do hope some things will soon go my way. I hate this feeling.Those who haven’t ever been struck by episode of major depression should be thankful for it. It’s a strange feeling when you can’t help yourself and medication isn’t an option. But to the nicer things!This is such a pretty photo! -- source link