Today I got really angry with myself for not foreseeing problems beyond my control before they happe
Today I got really angry with myself for not foreseeing problems beyond my control before they happened. I beat myself up. I felt like a bad dog mom. I felt co dependant. I felt like I was failing at life. And then I decided to take a breath and do some shadow work. I decided to remind myself that I have been under immense pressure this past year. I decided to validate that I was problem solving as best I could in the moment. I decided that instead of judging myself, I needed to step back and realize that I was expected to singularly problem solve in this way from a very early age and have rarely received emotional support during such times. I decided that constantly feeling like I have to “fix everything before it happens” is a toxic survival strategy embedded in me as a child when I was often expected to self parent. I processed. I was gentle with myself. I realized that I am enough for me and I am trying my best. I’m posting this for everyone who developed a sense of harsh self criticism or perfectionism as a survival strategy. I see you. You’re enough even when you’re not perfect. You deserve the grace and kindness you so easily give to others. ♥️ #shadowwork #reallife https://www.instagram.com/p/CLzvBjmFVPe/?igshid=h7mgafgfnbm2 -- source link
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