lilmessyy: Warning For precautionary reasons you must know a few small things before you fall in lov
lilmessyy:WarningFor precautionary reasons you must know a few small things before you fall in love with me.If you get close to me and then leave me, I will write about you. I will write about you until every square inch of you that took up space in my head is turned into ink on paper. I will write about you even when I really am over you and sometimes I will make myself so sad because of how I am able to turn such an awful thing into something so beautiful. I will probably try to find a way to get you to read what I wrote about you because writers can be attention whores, and you know I am one. I will find a way for you to read my writing and then regret it when you toss it aside. I will want my writing to place tears in your eyes and make you regret ever taking my heart because of the inevitability of you breaking it. I will want my writing to call up the memories of the late nights we spent fogging up your windows and pointing at the stars on the roof of your house and I will want you to yearn for those feelings back. I will want you to want me back. And it will anger you and I will be angered with you and maybe it will lead to a fight even though we haven’t loved each other for six months now and I even dated someone else. I’m a writer, and if you break my heart I will write and write and write about you because it is how I survive. It is how I can continue to get my heart broken and still have the courage to love again. I don’t smoke, or drink, or fuck people I don’t love, I write. And I’m warning you, if you are one of the ones who broke my heart and you come across one of my writings years later, I am not responsible for any fucked up feelings it will bring you. Maybe your wife will buy a poetry book I wrote and you’ll see my name on the cover and say to her “hey, I used to know that girl,” and out of curiosity you will pick up the book and read the first few pages. And the first few pages will turn into the entire book and you will read the things I wrote about you until you come to a page that mentions a specific that has nothing to do with you. Because I’ve had my heart broken more times than just you and I know you thought you were oh so special but comparatively, you didn’t hurt me that bad. So you’ll read the rest of your wife’s poetry book and buy the rest of things I wrote. And you will subscribe to my blog and constantly wait in agony each day for me to post my daily writing. Until you find what you’ve been looking for, the specific piece I wrote about you. And that’s it. All of those late nights, all of the I love you’s, the circles, the hurting, the tears, the fighting, the making up, the making out, the trust, the caring, the heart break, the forgetting will be amounted to 27 words on an internet post. And that is when we will be done. So don’t fall in love with a writer because writers take forever to let go. -- source link