clotpolesonly:I know this scene has been giffed a million times before, but I can’t help but get stu
clotpolesonly:I know this scene has been giffed a million times before, but I can’t help but get stuck on Lydia’s face every time I watch it. It’s a scene that just screams for an aromantic interpretation.Allison speaks so passionately of romantic love and Lydia just….freezes. She stares, eyes wide and a little bit scared, because she’s realizing all at once that she doesn’t feel that.Maybe, before now, she really thought she had. She thought she had been in love before. But nothing she’s ever experienced has been like this, not even the deepest care she’s ever had for a romantic partner.Is that what being in love is supposed to be like? Do real people actually feel that way for each other in real life and not just in those trashy, florid romance novels she’s always judged her mother for reading? She’d assumed those were metaphors, just fanciful exaggerations for the titillation of bored housewives.But there is nothing in Allison’s face or her voice to say that this isn’t genuinely the way she feels when Scott is around, and it throws everything Lydia thinks she knows about herself into a tailspin. She’s never felt that way, not about any of her previous boyfriends. Not even about Jackson, and she cares for Jackson more than anyone else in her life.Does that not count anymore? If it’s not like that, does it mean that she’s doing it wrong? Does it mean that she’s wrong? That she’s incapable of feeling the way Allison does about Scott?But, then again, does she even want to? To be so invested in another person that they can steal your breath and take over your mind - it sounds appealing on paper, in a way, but the prospect of it being true in reality is disquieting, to say the least. Allison describes it with breathless wonder, but it sounds frightening to Lydia. It sounds like helplessness. Like being taken over.Is she supposed to want that? She thought she wanted to be in love - she’d thought she already was - but now she’s not so sure. -- source link