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sapphosviolets: seesaltwitch: thisiscertainlyrandom: aethersvstem: readytobemommy: pixiedurango: mortomary: openblogtomyabusivemother: THIS. “angrily wash a dish at you or fold a sock into your direction” It sounds so ridiculous but it’s so sad and true. Yes this!!!! THIS IS WHY WE FLINCH AT STUPID SHIT AND HAVE TO ASK FOR REASSURANCE ANY TIME SOMEONE IN OUR VICINITY DOESN’T SEEM OVERTLY HAPPY. Literally if my mom just *turns around* in a way that seems different from usual I’m convinced I’ve done something to piss her off and it’s something that has impacted how I handle every social situation to on. This shits fucking wild and sounds ridiculous out loud and yet here I am. My mom used to angrily unload the dish washer and then slam the cabinets closed so hard it would shake the house. Now I’m a married adult and when my husband closes the kitchen cabinets I still flinch, there isn’t anger behind it or anything but it stresses me tf out For real tho you notice the slightest changes in someone’s body language when you’ve lived in an abusive home. Someone shifting their weight slightly or breathing differently sets me off and I’ll immediately start asking what’s wrong, what did I do, I’m sorry, etc. And they’ll be like, wtf??? this is why chores and keeping house are so hard for me and i’ve been out of my parents’ house for almost 7 years. -- source link
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